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but he thinks youre friends though
that's even how he referred to you when he first texted me
"my friend gokudera"

[That gives him pause, but of course, he's inclined to believe that a thought like that is too good to be true. Even if the Tenth DID text that, and he read it.]

The Tenth just wants us to get along. It doesn't change my place in the Family.

still.
even if it was dumb to try to give up your life for him it was honorable
something a good friend would do, even if youre not friends yet

It's not dumb that I would give up my life for him! It was dumb of you to not listen to me the first time when I said I didn't know you!

[Someone needs to take a chill pill.]

yeah and?! so i was dumb too
but you need to be alive to help the tenth
even if in this instance it wasn't needed it's still honorable to lay your life on the line thats my point ok

ok

ok....

You're really hung up on that, aren't you?

yes. i am.
i should be.

why?

why what

Why should you be so hung up on honor?

its a long story.... maybe i'll tell you another time.
the short of it:
i thought i had lost my honor for a long time. i thought my father stripped me of it.
and it took me years of mistakes and misused fire to learn one's honor is untouchable, no one can corrupt it or repair it except you yourself, no one else can take it away or give it back
reclaiming my honor was all i cared about, more than my own life
i was fighting on the wrong side of history in a century old world war, desperately seeking something i hadn't lost. i was blind. i did many dishonorable things in the name of "regaining my honor." and my hunt drove me to hurt those i love. but when i figured things out for myself the hard way, they recognized my change and forgave me later.
my honor is still everything to me. but because i had to fight hard for it, to reclaim it from myself. i wouldnt want to know myself without it; i already have.
so i guess you could say that's my own worth....

Okay that makes sense. So why do you care so much about my honor. Seems to me like it's none of your business.

no. it's none of my business. not now.

but im still certain just from knowing you before that youre innately more honorable than you probably think... even though i dont know you well anymore
and you'd probably disagree in any realm
and even though you fucking decked me twice
i still trust that.

Even though I fucking decked you twice. I gave you ample opportunity to leave me alone. You actively chose not to! Would you try to pet a dog if it bared its teeth at you, or stomp on a rattlesnake when it gives you warning?! I don't see anything dishonorable about me following up on my anger which felt completely justified. I'm probably pissing your sister off again by talking to you. What's the fucking point?

[It is easy to have a conversation through text, and Zuko isn't exactly difficult to talk to. He has no idea why, but he's not interested in getting jumped by Zuko's sister again. Even in this circumstance where he isn't fighting and the most that can be hurt are feelings.]

youre not wrong.
the way you fight in your world is very different from how we fight in mine. far less formality than our world. no suckerpunches in our battle philosophy... well at least in theory. not literal.
my sister doesnt fight with honor like she should though. she cheats even in a sacred fire duel... let alone seeking revenge on her own without her firebending.
she didnt tell me she was going to find you
im still furious at her
it wasn't her place

There's no fighting style I'm trained in, and learning how to fight was just a means of survival. I don't blame you for her attacking me. She's just doing what she thought was right, probably. I'm not sure, but she made her point clear. I shouldn't be talking to you.

no she's way out of line
azula cant be trusted
and i cant have her going around trying to fight my fights for me or trying to get revenge i dont even want!
if azula does something to help me theres probably a catch i cant see.. its been a while since she's acted like that, so i dont know what her angle is yet
but whatever it is, she and i dont exactly see eye-to-eye.... its complicated.

I'd rather not run into her again.

[So... just gonna avoid Zuko physically and choose his words carefully.]

She probably feels the same about me.

yeah
i'm not gonna let her know you texted
none of this involved her in the first place!!
not here at least! she was on the other planet with me, she knew you guys too.... you didnt get along there either. but it has nothing to do with what happened here. here she was just being vicious and vengeful and i can't take that

It looks like it involves her now, though.]

yeah..... now it does.
she's at bay at least. we've talked.
and as far as i can tell she doesnt have any motivations to betray me here

right so I’ll just let you be, and we’ll both be better off.

right....

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