[Gokudera blankly stares at that. He can't just say that he and Yamamoto had a very violent fight in front of an enemy who later tortured Gokudera for information all because Gokudera wouldn't open up to the baseball idiot. The bomber puts a hand over his face and groans.]

No. As a friend, he will worry that me keeping my secrets means I am not valuing his desire to help and support me. He'll think I'm bottling something up and trying to be a loner or something when I just don't know how to talk to him about this! I can't even look him in the eyes, for god's sake! It is so.... so much easier said than done.

[Damn Takeshi being attractive and making Gokudera turn stupid and he can't. He just can't. He is dramatic. He can't do it. He'll get drawn right into those honey eyes and that well-meaning stupid smile and remember all the good things and this Yamamoto looks so much like his Takeshi and it makes him happy and weak and stupid and upset all at once. His stomach hurts. Gokudera wants to just... hide in a hole somewhere and not come out. He looks down. Please, Avalon. Open up a pit and swallow him right up. Please.]